And after the emotional exhaustion I felt yesterday it is rather amusing that I tried to convince myself that after I napped I would hit the gym.  yeah right.  instead I ordered a pizza from this place I have been wanting to try, had a beer and watched myself some steel magnolias.  Oh I also consumed bread with butter and jam, a sugar free pudding, cheerios and a granola bar.  But I did eat a salad.  I justified this consumption by the fact that I ate eggs and a sausage for breakfast and for lunch a salad bar from whole foods oh and because I was waiting to start bleeding and an emotional wreck from having unearthed old trauma.  So no gym, but atleast I got 7 hours of sleep.  I was scared to sleep.  Today I have my gym shoes, I started bleeding and it is warm here.  So I will work out and all will be well. Cheers. me